Stop holding yourself together
your restricted and tethered
to your own ideas
of what should be
Stop hiding your cracks
pretending your intact
you won’t allow in
what could be [Read more…]
Being in the Unknown
I’ve been feeling down on myself this last week as I’ve been thinking about everything that seems to be missing from my life. The things I want for myself that are not in place yet. The things I want to do but am not yet able. I’ve been having difficulty making decisions for the coming months because I don’t know where I will be or how I will be. I don’t want to look back one day and feel like I missed out on the things I have decided to say “no” to, but I also don’t want to pursue situations that I can’t be fully present for or jump into something just because it is something. [Read more…]
The Path Ahead
I knew this time was coming, so, in the new year, I promised myself that I would be looking forward to being admitted to the hospital for a few weeks. I filled my calendar these last months, attempting more and more activities than I could reasonably integrate. I thought I would easily relax into nothingness once the opportunity came. But, my plan backfired. Days after being admitted I was still thinking about my “to do” list; my mind was cluttered with everything I should be or could be doing. [Read more…]